Saya Kembali!

Hello. I know I haven't been writing in ages, and maybe this time, this time, while writing this post, I might have almost reach size 14. Sadly, I haven't lost that much weight, but I gained some instead. But no worries, I'm not in pain. I'm not in pain at all. Yet, I'm quite happy. Haha.

The thing is that, I did try to go on with the size-14-goal thing but somehow, I failed. I don't know what went wrong and what made me gain weight (the food lah! Duhh..) but the bottom line is that I, have failed. I think I stopped the whole process sebab I stopped thinking about it.

Give me this opportunity to make a comeback. Hehehe. I wanna give it another go because yeah, everyone deserves a second chance, and a third, and a fourth and so on. Hopefully, I'll manage to keep going and try again because failure is just another way of saying try harder.

Pray for me, yeah. =]

Temptation = Weight Gain.

I think the title says everything! Since I'm back in college, whoa, can't stop looking for food lah! Even though I tried to control the food that I eat (the portion etc.), I'll end up rasa lapar gila and would also end up munching on something. Most of the time fruits lah. =] But, it's like temptation took over me la.

I'm currently having my final exams and I would usually not have breakfast, which should be a must. All because tak sempat. And when I'm studying, mesti ada masa nak think about food. Wuish. For me agak a big problem la. If this akan berterusan I could die of a heart attack! TEMPTATION IS YOUR WORST ENEMY. I kept reminding myself that. Somehow, temptation, once again took over. Gotta be stronger, don't I?

Kata-kata semangat:
Come on now, you can do it. Don't let your mind and temptation take control of you. When you make mistakes just keep moving forward. Same goes to your studies yeah. Do not strike till the iron is hot, but make it hot by striking. All the best!

Oh yeah, another thing you should keep in mind and say it again and again:

I EAT TO LIVE. I DO NOT LIVE TO EAT!

Kuala Lumpur Tercinta!

One thing IS for sure: Once I'm back in KL I'll be eating like no one's business no matter how hard I try! Period.

Well I was back home in KL for the weekends and there was a new, exciting, amazing discovery! Wanna know what it was? Well, a few years ago, I repeat, a few years ago, my parents were on vacation and they bought me and my sister a set of pajamas each. I still remember the first time I tried it on, yeah, it was ok, cuma fit-fit and a little too tight. That was in 2003 or 2004. I told my Mum I won't wear it sampailah dia betul-betul muat. So the other day when I was home, I found the PJs in my wardrobe and thought of trying it on for fun. Konon for old time's sake la ni. To my amazement, it fitted me well! Saya ulang, IT FITTED ME WELL! Yup. Was really, really surprised!

But then again, I blew it during my stay kat sane. My aunt and siblings were there and apparently my aunt cooked sangatlah macam-macam and I had no other choice but to eat that. Hehe. She cooked for her relatives who came to see her. Too bad I don't have pictures. Sorry. =[

Besides that, I was also out with my friends for dinner etc. We ate at Delicious (Ms. Read's) and boy, I'm already craving for their Caesar Salad! I've always heard of the place from my older sister and my parents (I haven't been there before). Well I got a taste of Delicious that night. My friends were right: They have the BEST Caesar Salad! Just look at it:


Tengok pon dah tau it's gonna be worth ordering for, right? Well that night (first time cuba), I had that and this:

Wild Mushroom Soup with Garlic Bread

Death by Iced Chocolate

Whoa. That was a really tempting name for an iced chocolate! Haha. Well I was there AGAIN and we had the same thing, cuma without the drink and the soup. We ordered the salad, Aglio Olio and Carbonara. We shared so I got a taste of all three. Agak full after eating and then, dessert came in mind. Oh my God. Sempat lagi nak think about that! I was unsure and my friends were still waiting for an answer. Haha. We ordered it anyways! This was what we had:

Something-something Pavlova

I DID NOT FEEL GUILTY AT ALL. It was really, really worth it! Freakin, damn good! Lagipon, it's meringue=egg whites. Not much harm, right? Only that cream part. But I heard from someone that it might be low in fat. Haa! Ok la tu. Hehe. And there's strawberries, kan? There, on top. Gosh, I'm craving for that now, too! Ms. Read, what have you done?

Well that was that, I also blew it off by having Dominos! Thanks to my lovely, lovely friend! Well she told me I should give it a rest once in a while or something like that. I slept at her house, so I had no choice! I told her I didn't want to, but I had to, or else she'll order Chicken Wings just for me! Dah la berlambak in a box! *Shrugs*

I had Dominos twice, actually. The second time, many thanks to my beloved uncle. The order was actually for my siblings yang dah nak balik and for other family members kat rumah dia, too. Including me, lah. Everyone was hungry ok! No fair if I just looked at it, kan?? But I didn't eat that much la, so yaay for me!

Now that I'm back in college I hope I can get back on track. My final exam is just around the corner so I hope I can selitkan a bit time to move around. Gotta still cuba to control the urge to makan, makan, makan. Til the next post!

TEMPTATION IS YOUR WORST ENEMY!

P/s: To whom it may concern: I'm trying to post as often as I can ok? Sorry lah that there weren't a lot of posts everytime you checked it out. Don't stop checking eh! Hehe. Love you lots!! =]

My Raya Post

Well hello. Sudah lama tak tulis anything. Anyways, it has been a (very long) while since I got to online agak lama. Well this is my Raya post. First and foremost, Selamat Belated Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Gotta wish, don't I?
Well my Raya was ok. I mean, not that special, just ok jela. The first day of Raya was normal. The old ambik-gambar-raya sessions. This Raya, however, was a little different. We didn't celebrate it at home. We celebrated it in Australia, instead. The thing is, I have a sister who's currently studying in Perth and she can't come home for Raya. She invited us to come instead. My parents apparently ada rezeki sikit to go, so they brought us along lah. Yup. Didn't feel like Raya. More like a vacation lah. Negara orang, kot! Duhh.

Ok, moving on. Here are the pictures of what I ate from the beginning of my journey to Perth sampailah balik. Well, almost.

In-flight food: Nasi Lemak

Samosa, not like our normal ones

That's Garlic Naan. Fluffy, big and yummy!

Chocolate covered Macademian nuts in chocolate cups

The comfort of hot chocolate on a windy, cold morning

Mrs. Mac's Famous Beef Pie

Should have seen how the Chocolate Chip Muffin looked like before!

It's a Choc Honeycomb flavored milk

Chocolate Bubble Tea with Rainbow jelly

Preparing and waiting for the absolute:



THIS! The Seafood Platter

And the classic Fish and Chips. Tak sedap sangat, though

Homemade cooking. Rice, veggie and fish

Breakfast. Homemade cooking

Turkish "Murtabak"

Kuey Teow Goreng I got from a small yet nice noodle restaurant

In-flight food: Nasi Goreng with Ayam Masak Merah

Ok, glad that was over. Hehe. Everything that I showed were what WE (not only ME) had and they were really good minus the Fish and Chips and the Seafood Platter. That was just fine. Not too good. And if you noticed, there were also homemade cooking somewhere up there. This is because during our stay in Perth, we rented a holiday house. Therefore, we can cook. Therefore, me Mum went to the grocery store and bought stuff and cooked lah. But these were not only what we ate during the whole trip. There's more, but sadly no pictures. Just a little too late. *Shrugs*

So from what I showed nampak like I had waay too much, right? Wrong. I did try to control my food intake and I did succeed a little. Hey, at least ada effort jugak, right? Right?? And I did exercise, believe it or not. Since we stayed at a holiday house, my Dad and I walked around the neighborhood in the mornings. The breezy and cold, windy weather macam boosted up my energy and semangat to walk. I mean home is always warm and hot, even in the mornings. Membuatkan lagi malas dan tiada mood.

Oh and guess what? To 'motivate' me even more to lose weight, I bought clothes or should I say t-shirts for me to wear IF I manage to reach size 14. That means if I reach size 14 and could fit into one, I'll wear those t-shirts I bought. Gosh I wonder when will that be? But overall the trip was fun and ok. Spending time with your family ramai-ramai is always the best. And it felt good to see my sister after a few months.
I haven't exactly lost weight (I think), but my uncles mentioned that there's a slight difference on my body. For example, they said that my back looked a little firmer and curvier. Even some of my friends said that I lost a little weight. Good sign? I don't know. Can't get too full of myself. Gotta keep moving! Keep moving!! =]

Slim?

Home sweet home! The Raya break is here and I'm back home! Woohoo!! Well i was already home on Wednesday but yela, nak rehat-rehat and all that. But there's one thing yang agak bad everytime I come home: Buka puasa. Makanan sedap dan banyak. Ugh. Scary. So banyak choices of food, it scares me. Like on Thursday night, we had Nasi Bukhari, Ayam Goreng, Mee Goreng, Pisang Goreng, Karipap, Dodol, and banyak lagi lah for buka puasa. Whew~. What a feast! Haha. =]
And today we had Nasi Goreng, Meehoon Sup, Jemput-jemput, Karipap, and this fried Oyster Mushrooms. Delicious with a capital D! By what I've listed down, looks like I'm gaining more pounds each day huh?

Well I'm proud to say that I didn't eat too much or more than enough. I ate a lot, yes, but yang cukup-cukup punya portion la. I mean, I stopped when I know it's enough for me and I didn't eat more than what was enough. Bagus, kan? Hehe. But still, I do feel like I've gained weight.

The thing is, just today or yesterday someone said that I've slimmed down. Come again? And this person haven't seen me for a few months. Even my parents said that I've slimmed down a little when I asked them. Is this for real? When I looked at myself in the mirror, uhm..nope. The same old me. Tak nampak ade turun skit pon. Not even a slightest bit. But people say that kite sendiri takley nampak sangat and other people can see changes. Well, whatever la kan. It's just that I was quite surprised with what I heard lah. This is good news, isn't it? Well, keep moving forward, and don't stop trying to lose weight!! Go, go, go!!! =D

Humiliation, Humiliation

What a beautiful sunny day. And I'm quite excited. Why? I'm finally meeting my friends whom I haven't seen for months! Well during the day I worked out a little. I walked up and down the stairs since I had nothing to do, and I woke up quite late. So after dandan-ing myself and all, my friend picked me up and we went to Pavillion. We went and buka ramai-ramai at Nando's. It's been like ages since I had anything from Nando's. What I had was ok kot. Not too much food on the plate. =]



Ok kan? Yay for me! =] Anyways, after that what did we do? Meet our other friends! As the saying goes, 'the more the merrier'! Hehe. We lepak at a spot and after that we planned to go somewhere to sing, nak karaoke lerr. We stopped somewhere in Ampang and this was where something quite unexpected and humiliating happened. We stopped there to go to the bank but apparently all the ATM machines were not functioning and we had to wait til 1am because by then it will berjalan seperti biase, so said the guard. It was almost 1 so we went to McD for ice cream. This was where it happened. My friend and I wanted the McFlurry with Berries and she ordered it for me. By the time the worker dah siap buat the thing, we said thanks and you know what she said? She told me this: "Yang ni untuk awak eh", pointing at one cup. I was really blur at the time and I said, "Apesal eh ni untuk saye?" and she just laughed. When I looked in the cup, still wondering why, that was when I understood what she meant. The portion of the McFlurry made especially for me was lagi banyak than the one for my friend. But I said nothing because I was blur at the time and I just went. I didn't tell my friends at the time but when I told them a little later, they were surprisingly angry at me for not saying something back to that terrible, horrible woman.

What a humiliation. And embarrassment. I know I should have said something but I was in a blur and at the same time, hurt. Yeah, I'm huge, big, fat. But why must she treat me like a humongous giant? It's like I was Clifford the Dog or something and nothing can satisfy my appetite. But with all the comfort from my friends, I didn't think too much about what happened and all of us went to the bank balik. Darn, it still won't work. And it was already half past one!
And at that particular moment, a friend of mine ajak makan cucuk-cucuk or yong tau foo kat vendor tepi bank tu. Nampak aje mata die! And NO, it was not MY eyes ok! Hehe. Well, ape lagi? Kiteorang agak lapar so, serbu!! =D

Some people might think that these vendors can be quite kotor sometimes or most of the times, but depends jugak la. Tengok la betul-betul kan? And this one seemed to be ok. And quite yummy, too! Even though vendor haram, tapi agak ok la. Kiteorang pon bukannye kisah sangat. Hehe. Haram pon, look at what we had:



Yummy!! Sedap! Satu ringgit per stick. Tapi worth it jugak la. I mean, look at that size! Haha. But the good news was I didn't eat everything alone lah. Sharing is caring right? Hehe. And after our second or third round, we witnessed something yang agak penuh dengan suspen. Macam dalam Gerak Khas. Apparently somebody called the DBKL and orang yang tukang jual ni kelam-kabut kemas barang la. Just imagine, carrying the whole table loaded with food AND the hot boiling broth ke belakang building ke mane tah sebab nak sorok it before the authorities datang. Thank goodness diorang sempat! When the DBKL people came, diorang cuma dapat amik besi yang jadi base for the table je. Pity them, but yeah, people gotta live, kan? At least we got a taste of what they had to offer. And it was good. =]
What an adventure. Hehe.

Anyhoo, after that we went ronda-ronda and all that and my plan to make the most of it with my friends that night was accomplished. I got adventure and humiliation all in one night. And tons of fun. +]
I also got a few more tips and advices from my GUY friends! Honestly, agak malu la. But yeah, they were trying to help and I appreciated that. But really, what happened to me with that bloody woman memang tak boleh dilupakan. Boleh tak kalau dunia ni takde nafsu nak make fun of other people, insult and humiliate them? Make them feel bad about themselves? Menyusahkan!

By the way, sorry panjang sangat! Jangan malas membaca! *Winks* =D

Curse you McDonald's!!!

I was thinking to kurangkan consuming food which are not that healthy, in other words: Junk Food and Fast Food. Well it was working quite well and I haven't thought about it that much but then, one day, that 'working quite well' changed.
I was minding my own business, at the mall, buying barang keperluan yang sudah kehabisan stok, when my friend called. She asked me to buy her McD. No hal la of course. When I got there, wham! New Product: Spicy Chicken McNuggets and Shaker Fries. Whoa. Dugaan, I told myself, dugaan. Sesungguhnya saya berpuasa. Yup, kept playing in my head but then, that same head of mine told me that I haven't gotten anything for buka puase so yeah, ended up buying a large set. Beautiful. And can you believe it? It was really, really, REALLY good!! Especially the nuggets. Honestly, 9 pieces weren't enough. Hehe.

That recipe I got with the oatmeal turned out to be ok afterall. I mean the first attempt tu tak brape ok la. Honestly, it was nasty. Tapi dah cube again, better. It looked lebih kurang macam ni la:




Disgusting? Haha thought so. Looks more like chocolate, kan? Well it's actually a mixture of oatmeal, tuna, pepper and a little soy sauce. You may puke now. Dah masuk the soy sauce you would probably think I'm crazy or something kan? But it's actually not that bad! Ok je. I was supposed to put in Marmite or Vegemite but apparently sebesar-besar Tesco tu takde, boleh tak? Entah mende diorang jual pon tatau la! Ish! But I've tried the other recipe which ade Vegemite in it, and boy, sedap kot! Hehe. Well, I like it lah. And I'm glad that I tried it. Hee.

Anyways, I'm having the oatmeal for every sahur, or maybe breakfast after Ramadhan is over. Looks like I'm controlling what I eat, right? Not correct! Apparently, for the last three, four days I've been going out and I bought that particular Spicy McNuggets set for buka puase. Unbelievable. What's more unbelievable is that I'm not only having that for buka. Macam tak cukup la. God!

Well currently I'm not in college and back home for the weekend and guess what? I had the same Spicy McNuggets set YESTERDAY and TODAY! Lagi terrific! I didn't work out that much today. But my mouth did get some exercise by talking and laughing with friends whom I haven't seen for quite some time, and those whom I just met today. Oh yeah, and by munching. A whole lot of exercise there!

Well here are some of the tips I got from a few people:

1. Try to walk 15-30 minutes everyday. If you can push harder, then perhaps an hour terus.
2. Eat less rice (better yet, don't eat any) and definitely no noodles.
3. Brown rice and brown bread lagi better.
4. Do it step by step and not terus-menerus, or else your body will be in shock.
5. Skipping 10-15 minutes.
6. Drink lots of water, and NOT iced.
7. Stop telling yourself that you can't do it, and start saying that you can!
8. Dancing is also an exercise.
9. People who tease you are actually motivating you to lose weight.
10. Love yourself, no matter what.

Got anymore ideas? I could use some more. Thanks a bunch to those who gave me these helpful tips which I am still trying to absorb slowly and willingly. But for now, all I can say is, "Curse you McDonald's!! Kenape kene produce such good food and unhealthy at the same time?"
But how could I blame them? It is me who should be blamed. But I love myself. Tip number 10: Love yourself, no matter what. So how could I be mad? *Shrugs*